Unnnngh

Sometimes it gets dark.

Last night in the darkness they were shouting again. So much of it was jumbled confusion, but a few phrases I deciphered - Who are you? Sit down and shut up. Answer me.
It was loud, bad and fucking angry and all I could do was tug at Mike's shirt and hug closely to him until they stopped. I couldn't even speak. I thought I was done with this shit.

Work experience is long and nerve-twisting. I can't sleep and wake around 5AM in panic, who knows why.

Wow. I guess I'm more messed up than I thought I was at the moment. No wonder I've been having severe mood swings. Things seem clearer when they are written... odd, huh...

Dear Household - You Suck

Tonight I made fried polenta, warm garlic mushroom salad with lemon dressing, confit onions and chicken and some guac. No one wants it.

Urgh. Only the thought of a bunny sipping tea will make me feel better.

I just don't have the motivation to post at the moment. Everything feels efforted. I feel bland and flat. It's usual.

It's auditory.

It's all in my head.

Shut up.

I'm pretty sure that I'm stopping eating in favour of suicidal past-times, such as heavy drinking, heavy smoking and purposeful walking into oncoming traffic.

Good times. Just don't tell the vicar

You Can Lose Your Mind (Just Hold On To Mine)

A pretty uneventful week or two, hence a slow trickling of random updates and little coherence. I'm feeling very fluid, so let's roll.
I've started my Thai boxing lessons and they're pretty hard work but with time and effort I'll be ready to kick the shit out of y'all ^_^. I should probably work out y'know.. I need someone to yell at me or I won't do it.