Ungh

I finally fell asleep around 2 A.M.

I woke up at :
2.33
3.46
5.27
7.00
And then I gave up. I can't eat, I can't sleep and my mouth tastes of guilt. I'd love it if there was something else to fill my head with other than - 'What the hell have I done?'. But there isn't.
The house smells of cigarettes and sunshine.
I left open facebook and msn, but the checking has become obsessive. I don't know how to fix this mess.