unravelling somewhat

GODDAMN 

No one is anywhere. I want everything. Now. 

Tears. Tears=Weakness, and they burn, and I'm cold. I want a hug. Weakness cracking my skin. Stop now now now. 

So.. if I can shoot rabbits... 

being so young... and being so vain. 

I hate you for going to sleep. Why are you so special that you get sleep... I don't. I need you. I want to deprive you as I have been. I want you to think as I do. All I want is to never be alone again. 

But I'm always alone I HATE YOU I HATE YOU. 

I hate men. I don't want a daddy. I don't have one. So don't give me another. Or another. 


Bastards. All of you 


You burn. 

Cold fire. 


I love one note. It is my sorrow. I can't read music. Or else I would know and be wed to that note. 

I DRAG BEHIND. Don't you know? I do. I scrape along in everyone elses shit. Why can't I drag anyone through my shit? 

NOW THE drugs DON'T WORK. And they never will... 

I'll be hiding somewhere high. 

Jump down spin around pick a bale of hay. 

 WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU? 

WAKE UP... I need you.. no one else works magic. Some just hurt. You are selfishly selfless.... And I love you. That's it. I DON'T BELIEVE IN YOU LOVE. LOVE IS NOT REAL. SO SHUT UP KHLOE SHUT UP 

I'm waiting for your healing hand.. one touch could bring me round.

NO MORE WIRES

DO NOT RESUSCITATE.
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But you see
That's contradictive
Why on earth would anyone practice
Self-destruction?